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Tuesday, June 5th, 2007
4:17 am	a breath of life... Hi.. I haven't spoken to you in a while. Its nothing personal, I've just been lost in my inner personal pathways... SO cheer up butter cup at least you still taste sweet!.. Hmm, well If I looked in a mirror I would look the same. But if you could read my lips you'd think it was one of those cheap Asian dub-overs ;) I'm rambling sorry.... So things are cold on this coast... Wales are getting lost in rivers.. Bridges are melting... Absinthe is tasty and Steven Hawking is the shit.. That about sums it up.. I've missed the East coast... I'll try to visit in a few months... I'm now Senior Tech Support for D10 Fedexkinkos stores.. They want me to wear a dress shirt and tie ~whine~ School starts in the fall I can't wait.. Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: Placebo~ Twenty years (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
11:31 pm	. Its still alive! So next week I'm venturing east, past the desert to the hot lands. I should be in town next monday. I'd like to meet people thursday night (29th) at Maudes? if your reading this your invited, and if your not reading this your still invited. People or no people, I'm a gonna be sitting at Maudes in a week. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: 30 gigs (the Ipod remix ) (Comment on this)
Monday, October 16th, 2006
2:28 am	. covenant played for 2 hours straight. Well they took 3 minutes here and there to drink some water and pee in between batches of songs. A very good show though..sleeepppp Current Mood: drained Current Music: Incubus ~ echo (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
11:30 am	. off to the ren fair... Diamanda Galas, Fucking odd. vocal jazz like never before.. (Comment on this)
2:00 am	. I find the white noise at work helps me write a lot, not to knock my muses though. "When logic and emotion kiss" I left the point I came to again and again I left the home where the dream began I'm looking for you out in the cold waiting for the night we can finally be whole Shaken like the fall leaves looking up from the ground blow me far from here till I can find my home I've seen your face a thousand times Lingering in dreamers passing by I've seen your smile but it wasn't time knowing now what I needed to learn Let the logic of our emotions burn Shaken like the fall leaves looking up from the ground blow me far from here till I can find my home Shaken like the fall leaves looking up from the ground blow me far from here till I can find my home Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Dead Can Dance ~ persian teardrop (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
4:07 pm	ZOMBIE FLASHMOBS!! Zombie flashmobs... They circle a date on the internet and on that day the subways are filled with people dressed as zombies. They spill out of the san francisco downtown terminal and act in a general zombie fashion. After terrorizing people for a while they head to a local vegan restaurant and eat vegan brains. http://flickr.com/photos/ioerror/sets/685972/ Last years pic... Poor tourists in the city don't know whats going on, one of these years someone is going to get shot or something. Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 1st, 2006
7:37 pm	YAY I'm going to see MR Gaiman tomorrow night. He's singing books just up the street. YAY! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 25th, 2006
8:37 pm	.. The deeper you stick it in your vein The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain I'm in heaven, I'm a god I'm everywhere, I feel so hot It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie) It's over now, I'm cold, alone I'm just a person on my own Nothing means a thing to me (Nothing means a thing to me) Current Mood: medicated Current Music: K's choice (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
10:25 pm	The only time the cops seem to fit in... Well so I agreed to go with some people to the folsom st fair.. I didn't know what it was at the time...**clears throat** quote "The grand daddy of all leather events".. Oh my was I surprised to say the least.. My Life With The Thrill Kill Kult was there and all in all it was really fun.. a lot of goth kids in bondage and A lot of leather daddies, I mean A LOT!! Almost everyone was naked there, guy and girls alike. You could drink in the streets, and pretty much get away with anything. It was the only times I saw people pretty much fucking in the street. It was also one of the only times the cops seemed to belong with the crowd. Too many people in uniforms.. All the Goth clubs were open from 2PM - 2 or 4ish am. But the drinking got old and I was way to tired to see anymore bands so I decided to take a taxi home. I'll post some pictures up later on, I think I'm going to take a shower. Current Mood: weird Current Music: Yann Tiersen - Comptine d'un autre été (Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
10:52 pm	.. ambiet music, absinthe, cranberry wine, fires, friends in odd places. Warehouses at 4am shift decisions from my eyes to yours. expressing experiences absorbed through your ears and not through your life is disastrous. Clever spinners of words, never speaking what it seemed.. Current Mood: cynical Current Music: larvae ~ airplanes (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
3:07 am	.. It baffles me the amount of people you can find through out the world. I feel lost in a sea of contradicting emotions or maybe ideologies? I'm loosing sight of the line between the two. I misplaced the manual to life when I was waking up this morning. I'm only left with a vague feeling of familiarity. I'm sick of the mediocrity and banality of my writing. I slept under a fur tree on top of a cliff covered in flowers. I watched the sun set over the atlantic ocean. some times I feel I'm the remainder of a problem, a fraction of a whole. I wondered if I could go back to the ocean. If I could reverse my progression... to be part of a larger being once again. what was I before? what am I now? what will I become? I was, were, will be.. me.. what ever that means. Things are well here, reading too much I think heh... I've been poking around the surrounding area, visiting various locations. I still haven't gone to the desert yet, but I'm working on it. lots of work, they have double overtime here, yay! If you work more the 12 hours in a day you hit double over time. So it made me happy I got made $25/hour for few hours. I'm reading henry miller's tropic of cancer still... its well a different style but very well done. I only get to read it on my lunch though. ok I've been dancing for the last 3 hours, I need to turn on the heat and crawl into bed.. I really like the poem I'm listening to by the way. look at current music and look him up... Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Allen Ginsberg ~ America (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
11:56 pm	. hmm I guess I haven't posted in a month or so...I guess I'll have to remedy that... ok done... Current Mood: (working-within) Current Music: Kidney Theives ~ serene dream (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 4th, 2006
12:27 am	I live! well I guess its been awhile. um material things (including me) have changed locations. I now have my very own cheap slightly ghetto on the outside 1 br studio apartment. By berkeley standards its cheap $750 a month. It was a week before they could get the power on. so that was a lot of reading by candle light and lots o wine. it was all fun and stuff. Learning quickly what I should not do while naked. Things like.... when in the nude, cooking with hot grease is not the best idea. This sent me dancing around the apartment sings verse after verse of curses. Other then that most everything is ok to do in the nude, why? cause I can. Reading tropic of capricorn right now, I like the little intro by anais nin. I have a list of books to get from Moe's again. I met this girl, she was so skinny and cute and very pounceable. I probably won't see her back at the club again, but I hope I do though. I really like san francisco. The old victorian houses remind me of New Orleans. The city has its own climate that stays about 70ish all day. Its so much more and a lot to absorb. I was there the other day and I turned down this side street thinking it would be a shortcut. It was as if india and most of Europe got together and plotted against me. They thought it would be funny if they placed themselves in front of me when I blinked. when I opened my eyes it was a endless row of restaurants lining the side of the street. lights and ivy climbed the walls. it was jammed full of small restaurants.. Indian, Italian, French, they had everything! Tables and wine glass all set for two, I declined due to the lack of company. I don't know when I'll get on line again, it might take them a week or so to come out and set up internet service. so goodnight for now.. Current Mood: predatory (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 17th, 2006
10:43 pm	nada on the hair cut. maybe next weekend. I did spend a few hours watching the sun set. I watched it set at muir beach out look. Everyone likes the clickie clickie http://www.flickr.com/photos/75964864@N00/sets/72157594169116083/show/ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:02 pm	. I think my life is stuck in a contra code. up, down, up, down, left, right, left, right, start, select, start, select. I am about to head into the city to get my hair cut. I'll post pictures later.. Current Mood: exanimate Current Music: tori amos ~ hey jupiter (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
10:54 pm	the wind blows across the desert and rearranges the sand. Still looks the same to me though... I finished a book and I was looking for another to read when I tripped and busted my ass. “Searching for angel Juan“ was the culprit. I've only been reading it for a few hours but I don't want it to end, even though I've read it like 3 times over the last few months. I think I’m going to go into the city and take some pictures tomorrow. maybe I'll pick up a few more books.. Ragg Mopp “But me, maybe I fit in a place like this. Maybe the cold inside of me will seem less cold in this winter. Maybe the tall buildings will make the brick walls I build for myself seem smaller. Maybe the noises in my head will quiet down in the middle of all the other noises. Or maybe my cold and walls and noises will get worse” Current Mood: drunk Current Music: The mills brothers ~ Ragg Mopp (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
11:12 am	.. Ah yes indeedie fun time. http://www.deathguildthunderdome.com/ I know its 20 bucks but, its a mile away from me and and they have lots o fire. watch the video. In other news I think I'm gonna head to the castro to get my hair cut. I just want some thing done with it, and who could be better at hair then a fairy? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
3:06 am	. Reasons CA sucks.. 1/4 my pay check went to taxes... Why CA is fucking amazing.... I worked 40 hours. After 32 of those hours, I get over time. so that's 8 hours at $18 dollars a hour.. talking to people is going eh so so. I guess I haven't done this in a while. When did God decree me shy? Love of mine some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark Current Mood: listless Current Music: death cab (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
2:53 am	. I wish that could be me. But I guess someday I might be wishing I was me again. the new death cab is wonderful. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 28th, 2006
12:54 am	.. Why is it so hard to find a girl, fall in love, steal away into the night, and travel the world? We'd go to places like bali, ireland, scotland, germany, the netherlands, iceland, japan, france, italy, rome, and anywhere and everywhere else it strikes us to go. Is this that hard to ask? I mean in all these years of searching and still she isn't next to me? I call this "The prologue to our lives" I'm here in san francisco, just waiting in a line. Its an 20 mintues to the airport, do you think that's enough time, to get to know where we want to go. I'd ask you your name but I already know. And we'll sleep holding each other on a plane, watching our lives go by outside the window pane. And I'll kiss away the tears that may happen upon your face, the world cries outside, as we leave this place. Still I know you'll be in my arms soon enough and then our shoes will leave foot prints across the sands. And we'll watch as the stars shift to fit our faces, we'll be staring back at them from inside our arms. And when we're done here, we'll move on the to next place. I guess right now, I'm still writing the prologue of our story. so when your ready you and I will hold the pen and start the first chapter to our lives as the plane takes flight.... Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: death cab for cutie ~ follow you into the dark (Comment on this)